Garrett & I off of the Santa Barbara Coast 1.2.2012; so blessed.
Just about 6 months ago, I was in excruciating pain with 4 compressed disks and pinched nerves. Today, I am still struggling to heal and keep the pain away, while still attempting to live life normally. For the past 5 years our life has been jam-packed; weekend to weekend we had parties, events, church, ministry, gatherings, chores, etc. etc. etc. And now, we plan NOTHING. Every day is different for me. Some weeks are amazing and I am able to get so much done and then the next week I am bed-ridden trying to bear the pain. So here I am, taking it one day at a time…
I thought now would be a great time to list out the blessings that have been revealed and even more amplified in my life during this time:
- My amazing husband has stepped up in helping keep the house clean and take care of me when Im in pain. He loves me when I am defeated and encourages me when I am questioning if I will ever get better. All this while working pretty much two jobs.
- My family who lifts me up in prayer and encourages me. Especially my mom who has helped deep clean my apartment and made it feel more like home again — priceless.
- A workplace that while stressful is very flexible. If I need to come in late and make up hours, they are totally understanding.
- My relationship with God has grown; I desperately need Him for strength and the reminder that He never gives me more than I can handle. He knows what is good for me and what the end result will be.
- Control; I have had to give up complete control over my life to God and be humble in asking for help and allowing people to be a part of my life. I am a planner and I love helping others, but now I realize that I was never letting others help or bless me.
- Sleep is huge! Some nights I just plain can not sleep due to lack of comfort or just enough pain to keep me awake. Every morning that I wake up from a full night’s rest I am praising God and feeling so great!
- A more positive outlook; the last couple of years in my life I have been around a few people that are just plain negative and that can wear you down and even influence how you view life as well. I feel like I had gotten more negative and now I can say that God has shown me that I can be up even when I’m down. He has taught me to find blessing and greatfulness in even the smallest of things, holding on to those blessings throughout my day!
- A praise-filled life! This sort of goes along with #7 but I can not stress more how much more praise I can give to God now that I have so little else to offer. God is the only One who gives me the strength and ability to offer anything of myself and now I see that all I can do is only because of Him. He is so praise-worthy.
- Opportunity; God has placed ministry & learning opportunities in mine and G’s lives that have turned out to be a huge blessing to us during this time. Teaching Sunday school and actually learning more and loving God more because of it. Also studying the Word with our community has given us time to be in the Word together and grow closer together through that.
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Philippians 4:8
Thanks for letting me share. Thanks for those who have and continue to pray for and encourage me/us. Please let me know how I can help you and encourage you in turn.
Right now I am simply praying for direction on what may be next for me in this journey. What else can I do? I love and trust my doctors but still wonder if maybe this is more serious than they may think (I have only seen a chiropractor (2) and not a doctor) and possibly may be other solutions out there for me. I am already spending the money, so I want to know I am doing everything I can! After some reasearch, I am going to go get some Vitamin D supplements tomorrow and see if that will help. One day at a time…
Have a blessed day!